Monday, September 24, 2007

Cricket Fever

The Twenty20 final between India and Pakistan begins in less than an hour! Apparently, it's been almost 8 years or so since Pakistan made it to the final of any cricket tournament - or so I've been told. And a Pakistan-India match...well nothing could top this for folks in or belonging to either of the 2 countries.

Suffice it to say, Asad and I are excited and will be glued to the match. Good luck Pakistan...or as the new mantra seems to be...chak de Pakistan!

Hopefully a celebratory post will be in order later today (Inshallah :-)!).

In the meantime, an image from All Things Pakistan that IMHO captures the essence of the importance of the game - the jubilation, patriotic jazba (passion), and the sheer junoon (madness, mania...in the sense of overwhelming passion) of it all.

Friday, September 07, 2007

Wedding shout-outs

Two big shout-outs to 2 of my favorite gal pals as they tied the proverbial knots this summer: Raania & Jenny.

Love and prayers for everything good for both of you as you slip into the next stage of your lives.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Something to think about...courtesy "the past"

Over the long holiday week-end, I had a heartening chat with a very old and dear friend. Okay, my first ex- to be precise. We met rather unexpectedly at a wedding. So we spent pretty much the entire affair catching up---probably because it's been years and years that we've had an actual conversation and also because we've been so out of touch that I guess we were both curious what the other one was up to.

Whatever,the reason I must admit that it felt really nice. That we could pick up the friendship we shared sans any of the bitterness that I see amongst other couples that almost got married but didn't was really encouraging. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy - happy too. Long story short, the conversation also made me realize that I've missed being able to talk to him, especially since I was feeling a bit muddled about some stuff and have always found him to be a good listener. He's one of those people that help you find your way through rather than simply telling you what one should do. So, at the end of the evening (read: late night/early morning), I found myself wishing and hoping that we could find some way to actually be friends.

So color me surprised and pleased that I got an e-mail from him this morning echoing the same thoughts. In addition to that, he sent me this quote as the "only" piece of advice he'd give me:

"Wherever you go, go with all your heart." ~Confucius

I think it's a good thought. I think we all know this but perhaps forget it along the way and need to be reminded from time to time. Oh heck why generalize?! I don't know about other people but I'd forgotten this along the way and have been making myself miserable in the process. Not to mention, robotic. Having my head buried in what I "should" be doing I sort of lost sight of how that "should" isn't just a natural progression that everyone expects but that it ought to be intimately connected to what my gut thinks I should do and what makes me happy. Yes I continue to be cryptic...bear with me for a while longer because I'm not sure if I'm ready to go public while I'm still in the process of making these decisions. Rest assured, once I know where I'm landing I'll be sure to blog about it.

In the meantime, please wish me, and my heart, good luck plus courage!

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Responding to violence: suicide bombings in Pakistan

One of the first pieces of news I heard when I switched on the news this morning before leaving for work had to do with suicide bombings in Pakistan. Then, while I was holding my office hours I read this post at All Things Pakistan. [FYI: This post does an excellent job summarizing the event to which I'm referring plus the discussion thread is also worth checking out if you're interested.]

My first thought: which city?
A pet peeve I'm beginning to add to my (growing?) list is the way in which American news stories about the rest of the world simply specify what happened in country X without any reference to location. There are times when the geographical coordinates are more specific; more often than not the most specific one gets is "a village nearby. I guess no harm in that right? They're most likely to mention a city which the average viewer might know. Then again, after 9/11 when the name 'Afghanistan' popped up I heard a number of folks in a not-Ivy-League-but-Ivyish-enough-university in the Northeastern part of USA wonder if the country was in South America?! Nopes, I kid you not. Okay rant on "lack of geographical awareness" some other time, if at all. Coming back to where I was going with this. The nearby village might, at times, be hundreds of miles away. If not the name, I wonder if adding "a village X miles away from city Y in country Z" might be asking too much of these news broadcasts! What's my point? It's frustrating when you're trying to ascertain right there and then if your loved ones living in country Y are okay.

It appears that everyone I know is accounted for. Yes I know it's selfish. Which brings me to the thoughts that followed.

So second, third, fourth thoughts:
I wonder if I'm the proverbial Pakistani who, because of living amidst such a high degree of violence, has gotten completely desensitized to it? In some respects, I am. In others, such as when I call loved ones in Karachi to confirm that they're okay following news reports of let's say a blast somewhere within the city. Most of the time I'm the subject of much ridicule. Yes I know it generally happens in "those" areas where nobody I know lives or visits much. But still.

That's not what bothered me about the thoughts that kept popping into my head all day. I wonder - and to a large extent, worry - what this means for the prospect of change for the better. If we do become desensitized to violence - which you have to in order to live in a space-time particularity where that occurs on a daily basis -at what point and in what ways do you participate in any means to end the spiral that's spinning out of control? Are you even capable of that? A couple of years ago I was at an address delievered by President Pervez Musharraf in New York city. The audience consisted of Pakistani-American youth. When asked about the worsening law and order situation in Karachi and the lack of security he commented that Karachi was like any other city in the world. He cited a couple of South American examples to suggest that the lawlessness of Karachi gets blown out of proportion. I remember feeling offended and angry at what I would describe as his dismissive and callous response. Just because it's something that's been known to happen doesn't mean it's any less problematic or doesn't need to be addressed. It's a challenge for sure but one that needs to be confronted and tackled. No I don't want to give him the benefit of doubt of having become desensitized to it. As the head of the state, I think it's his responsibility to put the wheels in motion to take care of this problem. I do not think that an old man in his 70s being kidnapped by a bunch of thugs while he's walking from your home to a convenience store in his neighborhood for the sake of a few rupees is acceptable. The question to which I have no answer but to which I have been returning all day is can the madness stop and by what means if people learn to live with (how's that for working in the blog title!) situations they shouldn't have to? If you do become desensitized, is the lack of action part of feeling helpless or something else? Is it that you just don't know where to begin? Do you even recognize it as a problem that can be solved?

I don't have any answers to this question. But color me bothered because I don't think that everyday living should be fraught with such dangers. I don't think this is something that one should learn to live with to the extent that it becomes absorbed within your daily life....willingly, unwillingly, or out of sheer helplessness.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Spark of madness...

Yes I've been gone from the blogosphere for a while. Life has been topsy-turvy - not in a bad way but overwhelming for sure. I started a new teaching position - a visiting professor gig to be precise. Between that and dissertating, I have literally had no free time.

When I have had time I've been enjoying the last few days of summer - far far away from my laptop.

Going away later today but just had a few things that I wanted to blog about. So I decided to pick one that best sums up where I'm at in life. Don't ask me why I picked that? I just did. It felt important.

I've been going through my share of angst over the last few weeks. I've been feeling somewhat restless - that's probably more precise. Somewhat uncertain. And it suddenly just hit me on Thursday - well that's when it started and I feel I can articulate it succintly now.

The spark of madness that always characterized me has been dormant for too long. I've been stagnant in some respects - which in a sense was necessary to get to where I'm at right now. [Yes I'm being cryptic I know but it's going to have to stay that way for now at least.] I didn't have time to indulge The Spark. Time shmime. Life is going to get more demanding before it starts to ease up. And so the spark is back. No more rationalizing everything. The gut gets to speak and the spark gets to guide it. Hmm not sure if they're separate...

Just in case you started wondering - nopes I wasn't down in the trenches relishing the dumps or the blues. I just have been making some decisions that are out of sync with The Spark 'o' Madness that has always been a part of who I am. And so I'm back baby - (knock on wood, touchwood, Mashallah, etc)! The spring cleaning has been done - behold what I think is a delightful combination of craziness, sparkiness, courage, and wisdom with the perfect smidge of childish innocence. I guess I am holding true to my resolution for 2007: getting rid of all baggage. Watch out world! And anyone who wishes to join me in reconnecting with The Spark- the more the merrier. Cheers :-)!